A Story of An Elm Tree

Good Morning!

(Haha! I’m assuming that each morning, you enter MTS’s cozy little office, sit at you well decorated table and fire your Toshiba laptop up and launch IE pointing to this website and there hasn’t been a single post that actually greeted you: Good Morning!)

Remember how I was telling you sometimes I wished life could be more perfect and just let it all fit nicely as in a jigsaw puzzle (not that it’s always an easy time, jigsaw can be trying too, but eventually it all fits in), but I think life cannot be like that.

If I could wish for my life to be perfect, it would be tempting, but I would have to decline, for life would no longer teach me anything.
– Allyson Jones 

Saw this quote online and it rang so true.

Anyhow, these days, the days seem so much more filled, it seems like I have so much more to do, so much more to think about and seem to be having so much more opportunities open to me. Perhaps, it’s a sign that things are going to be starting to pick up, and I hope so.

That’s just a thought. Do have a great day at work!

The 4D number that i did not check…This is the photo which i will use for my 大工成 which i mentioned to you over our conversation till 4 am that fateful day. In a way, no matter where you are, with me here and anywhere, i will still make a choice to pursue my happYness:

1. I know you will be happy for me and will support me all the way no matter where i go.

2.To me, it doesn’t not meant having somebody by your side means the person cares for you more.

3. I want you to be HappY too no matter where you work in..it’s not about the Where, it about the Care!We survived through a conversation till 4 am..so to me…not an issue whether you join me at the end of the day..remember the earth is round…what’s meant to be will eventually be …

4. Your Happyness is equally important to my Happyness.

 

To tell you the truth, i am really standing at the CrossRoads, not because i am afraid that if i made a change in decision, you will no longer be standing there beside me, coz i choose to believe in Him and you…it was a fear of letting go of a passion in training in exchanged for a job which i do not know where i will land and what i will do after that.

 

Thanks for letting me in on your big decision. It gave me a lot of food for thought, too. I must have had a few restless nights just thinking about it … the ifs, the what ifs, the if only, etc …

There really isn’t a contradiction in “pursuing HappYness” and “Happiness cannot be planned”. It is true, happiness cannot be planned. No amount of planning can determine if you shall be happy in the future, yet to be happy, you can only pursue what you deem as happYness. Of course, this is not an advocate for to be in a state of constant unhappiness that happYness is always somewhere ahead and which has to be pursued. Rather, it means that if you want something, most often you would have to go and get it and it could mean going out of your way to get it.

When you remembered the 5 pursued HappYness in your life and listed them in your post, I’m sure you felt very happy and satisfied for each one of them. It is always a wonderful feeling when something you wanted, pursued and gotten came out to be a happy ending. Yet, no one has the power to read the future. Every pursuit brings with it it’s own risk. No matter what decision you make, be it staying in Shanghai or going to Beijing, won’t you say that both have their risk, won’t you also say that both have their kind of HappYness?

The truth is that I would much prefer it if you continued in Shanghai, cos’ it seemed that like a higher possibility that I can get a job there. Getting a job in China is tough and I honestly doubt my reach can extend all the way to Beijing. In any case, if you do go BJ, then all I can say is: see how.
Which leads me to the other truth, I want you to be happy and therefore hope that you really give the MD’s offer serious consideration. If it’s important to you and in line with your pursuit for HappYness, go for it! I will still give you my full support.

Perhaps, it is a good thing that I am still in Spore. You don’t have to feel obligated that I want to go over for you, or there isn’t anyone there to add pressure to you. Anyway, just thought about the 1st time u were planning to go Beijing to work with your colleague also. At that time I also thought to myself: Cham!, how do I land myself in Beijing? HaHa!

Finally, I would say leave it to God to decide, but God can be awfully silent at times for reason I cannot comprehend. HappIness has an “I” in it, because it’s about a state of being happy. Not at the expense of others, and also not in the state of only others are happy. It’s about you, yourself, being happy.

I am very tired after days of late nights and early morning, but i am Happy. I did not know what came over me to tell you my plans but just wanted to thank you for being so supportive , all the time. Wactched this movie by Will Smith called Pursue HappYness.

2 words i learnt in the show: FUCK and HappYness

FOOD for Thought on the movie: HappYness is pursued !

Now that contradicts the quote on my Calender: Planning For happiness rarely successful, Happiness just happens.

So, should i pursue my happiness or it just happens…?

BUT,

1. Just like how i woke up at 5am everyday to study and top in class ( pursued happiness)

2. I pursue the opportunity to go for an SQ interview …and started flying around the world at the age of 18 ( pursued happiness)

3. I rush through to submit the application for the NOC interview on the very last day and got a chance to work in Shanghai ( pursued happiness)

4. I choose to live with 2 great colleagues in spite of the discouragement from parents, some NOC friends and my landlord and got a chance to know 2 of the best people in my life (pursued happiness) in China..i miss our days of staying together

Now that i am standing at the cross roads again…i wonder if i should pursue this happYness in front of me ( a totally new job, a new environment@ the risk of losing something )????

 

 

Happy International Women’s Day!

I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an’ pretend
’cause I’ve heard it all before
And I’ve been down there on the floor
No one’s ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

=) Theme song for all women round the world!!!

Have a good weekend!

p.s. Thanks for the Mind Gym

Ok, as I said this afternoon, the next time I go to the airport, I hope it’s to send myself off to Shanghai.

Not any pressing circumstances, but I think it’s time my break is over. It had been a lazy 2 months and I think I have enough rest already.

It’s really true that  岁月不留人, 10 days pass by so quickly. Anyway, CNY was a good holiday and I’m sure you had a good time in Singapore and Malaysia.

Finally, here’s wishing you all the best in your work, since you said it was going to be the busiest month.

Gabriel’s Place, at the far flung corner of the island. “In between” that causes so much heart thumping action and let a certain Mr. P win so much $$$.
2 nights in a row, you went.

Nice place with a great variety that it very different from other pubs … (well) I like live bands. Dragonfly is very interesting … something I unique as it caters to a crowd that I had forgotten existed in Singapore (and possibly a lot of places).

Just to remember that we can use  福   in any way that we deem suitable:

Chinese New Year comes around again.

Time flies … reminds me a little of 2006, when we just return from SH.

Here’s wishing you: 身体健康 (I find this of the utmost importance), 马到功成 (For the good advancement of your career), 生意兴隆 (Even though not your own business, doing sales is like doing your own business), 万事如意 (All things be pleasant and smooth) and 年年有余 (To earn and have abundance to pay off loans, enjoy oneself and safe for the dream house of yours).